“I’m happy not being a boss or a brand or a billboard, just a person,” DeGeneres said in her final Netflix special, ‘Ellen DeGeneres: For Your Approval’
Two years after The Ellen DeGeneres Show came to an end, is getting candid about how affected her mental health.
The allegations, first made public in a published by in July 2020, were addressed by the comedian, 66, in her final Netflix special which premiered on Tuesday, Sept. 24.
“I’m happy not being a boss or a brand or a billboard, just a person,” said DeGeneres, whose talk show .
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“Just a multifaceted person with different feelings and emotions, and I can be happy and sad and compassionate or frustrated. I have OCD and ADD. I’m honest. I’m generous. I’m sensitive and thoughtful,” she continued. “But I’m tough, and I’m impatient, and I’m demanding. I’m direct. I’m a strong woman.”
After being met with roaring cheers from the audience and receiving a standing ovation, she mouthed “thank you” to the crowd and declared she was “proud of who I’ve become.”
“When you’re a public figure, you’re open to everyone’s interpretation. And I’m sure you’ve heard the saying that, ‘What other people think of me is none of my business.’ Because people will say all kinds of things and you have no control over that. But you know the truth and that’s all that matters,” she said.
DeGeneres shared that being in comedy made her “care what people think” because “it’s our only real currency for success.”
“If they like you, you’re in, and if they don’t, you’re out. And I’ve spent an entire lifetime trying to make people happy and I’ve cared far too much what other people think of me. So, the thought of anyone thinking that I’m mean was devastating to me, and it consumed me for a long time,” she said, noting that she’s gained “perspective” with aging.
“After a lifetime of caring, I just can’t anymore. So I don’t. But if I’m being honest… and I have a choice of people remembering me as someone who was mean or someone who was beloved. Be-lov-ed? Beloved? Beloved. Someone who is beloved? …. ” DeGeneres said before adding, “I choose that.”
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Although DeGeneres’ long-running talk show , she previously told that the allegations .
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